Happy May Mamas!
I was delighted to get some time to go to the local library sans my 3.75-year-old, which meant I had time to soak in the displays and fondle pages of some potential page-turners…
My delight furthered when I realized the display was set up for the monthly theme. And there it was big and bold “May is Mental Health Awareness Month”…ironic that just a week ago, I was diagnosed with a mental illness.
I’m 36.5-years old (and as a former high school math teacher- I pay A LOT of attention to numbers and detail), and have been seeing therapists and other mental health professionals since I was 5-years-old. None of them diagnosed me as what I just got diagnosed with – bi-polar. Bi-polar I Effective Disorder to be precise…
Growing up I was labeled as “smart” and “emotional”.
Smart because I could do really well in school. (So well that I always brag that I started 5-year-old Kindergarten as a 4-year-old.) I was never the best in my class, but I always tried my best and had an excellent attitude of belief and ability.
I was also dubbed ‘emotional’ because of my sensitivity to, well…a lot of things. You see, I witnessed the violent murder of my mother just one month in Kindergarten, and I took death, and therefore life, very seriously.
Sometimes I speak cryptic – and this is an example…
No longer shall I dwell on the stories of my past, but they are critical components in the life that I am living and the healing that I am channeling to evolve the future for my baby and beyond.
I am going to be doing this in several ways.
First and foremost – I am minimalizing my life to focus on my core values.
Gratitude. Health. Spirituality.
Being a mom – specifically, a Stay-At-Home-Mom and caretaker to my family and property/possessions – that is my top priority. Keeping a clean house – making my bed. Baking gluten-free, sugar free snacks for my daughter and her friends… those are the important things that I choose to focus on. They are not tasks that illicit a huge paycheck or a direct return on investment, but they are tasks that bring me and those in my world – joy. And that is the best return that I can give, and the best investment that I can make.
In order to make these investments, and to help ease my need to goal-set and micromanage my life – I have created seven areas to focus on sharing throughout this month. As I love to listen to and tell stories, I will be using the seven areas to tell the stories of what I learn and love throughout the month.
Before I get started…
- there is a reason there are seven goals.
- this work aligns with my previous work developing seven areas of wellness and helping people create personal wellness plans to vision and live their most vibrant lives.
- this is what I am called to do – live my best life and help inspire others – that’s you – to ignite your infinite growth potential, and get out there and live yours!
So here are my seven areas to tell stories for this season of my life….
- Minimalizing EnJoy!
- Self Care and Development
- Recovery – 12 Steps Beyond
- Mental Health Awareness
- Shopping for a School
- Becoming Christian
Stay tuned as I dive in to each of these areas as they emerge in my daily life and reflections.
For tonight, I sign off with a heartfelt note of courageous vulnerability –
It is not easy living with a mental illness, but with love and understanding, it becomes more bearable.
With love and understanding,